3 days gone by..and a whole lotta fun with a bitta drama!

Sunday
9.06- Pick up Stina and get road trippin'
9.07- Come back to get Stina's sunnies
9.08- On the road again
9.21- Fill the gas tank bitch!
10.42- Arrive at the beach house
10.58- Lock ourselves out the house
11.02- Get back into the house with our ninja ethics
11.04- Leave to go grocery Shopping
11.10- Go grocery shopping
11.37- Eat Lunch at the local chicken shop! nom nom
12.07- Arrive back at the beach house
12.09- Put Groceries away
12.11- Sunbake and chill in the backyard with musicccccccccccccccc in the awesome banana chairs
1.58- Went to the beach and ate onion rings while watching father and son fishing with hippies behind us!
2.30- Go to queenscliff
2.48- Got ice cream and went for a walk
3.40- Went on Harley Davidson ride in sidecar and went on a tour
4.04- Got back in the car and headed back to the beach house!
4.26- Get back to beach house and watched Remember Me
6.30- made bacon and eggs for dinner
7.18- Watched Cop out!
9.23- Go lay in bed and talk till midnight :)

MONDAY
FUCK TIMES- WAS TO BUSY TO NOTETAKE
Woke up
Maccas run for breakky and free wifi
Went to Geelong Town centre shops and got MADDDD SHIZ! on sale
Went down to Geelong beach and took photos with all the bollards
Met a hot helicopter man ;)
Went to Botanical Gardens
Went and bought batteries for camera
Went to the pub and had fish and chips
Met some hot guys
Then met some hot tradies
Then stalked hot tradies
Sat in the boot chillin
Took random photos
Went to get marshmallows and ice magic
Went back to beach house and chilled in banana chairs
Stina goes for run up a hill
Adriana drops coke on stinas fone
Adriana had a shower
Chilled watching Maid of honour
Random turns up and fucks up driveway with car
All sit outside chillin and chattin for a few hours
Go inside and finish watching maid of honour eating marshmallows
Go back outside for a bit
Eat Ice cream with Ice Magic
Go inside and make up the face of the random
Watch Princess diaries
Stina goes to bed..
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Drana and random stay awake watching a movie
Drana gets a massage
Drana gets ****

TUESDAY
ROADTRIP HOME BITCHES.

runaway.

I doubt that I am, but I wonder... if i am the only 18 year old who has turned 18 and had her parents just become generally shitty at her. I actually don't like the image of going home...
It's like now that I'm 18 and am free, they are trying to control me more than ever. I don't want to rebel.. I don't want to go against their wishes...
but this is ridiculous!
I don't do anything wrong and all of a sudden I'm too loud, too fat, too selfish, too whiny. I HAVEN'T DONE SHIT!
If anything yeah I'm loud, but I haven't increased in volume in the past 6 months.
I'm fat but I've lost weight since i turned 18
I care about myself but always put myself last
I complain because I have a reason to.
I'm willing to lend you my shoes if you are brave enough to fucking walk in them!

fresh.

EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!!!

Which now means I am on holidays!
Holidays + Adriana = Happiness

All this new found free time will mean I get to explore passions that have come back to me lately...
I am in the process of redecorating my room/renovating my room.. it's sadly and lamely feeling like a fresh start and a fresh me!
Ive finished some new songs and have gotten back into singing; and my guitar is no longer dusty..
Dancing is back on the scene... pathetically and oddly its bollywood at the moment but im surprisingly LOVING IT! It's so up beat and bouncy haha!
FASHION BAYBAY! Just did a new folio am in the process of getting a dress made! It was designed for me to wear to my sisters 21st...and i just bought the PERFECT red heels to go with it!
Speaking of shoes..GUESS WHO IS GETTING A WARDROBE FOR SHOES MADE!!!!!
In case you didn't guess it was me :)

Things are looking alright.
Things are feeling alright.
Things are alright.

Currently sitting here with the wonderful Dre'.

We just thought everyone should know...

KEV IS A SICKKKKKKOOOOOOOOOOO

KEV HAS A BIG DICCCKKKKOOOOOOO

The reason for such a high would be that tomorrow I finish exams (Dre' finished school last week) and I will be free for a month to get outta this hell hole and have a good time.

So on that note...

FUCKEN RELAX AYE!

That is all.

below mediocre

it's not like i don't know there are many people worse off then me.

i completely get it, i do.

but i just feel like one of the unluckiest people ever.

im sick of being sick

and im tired of being tired

i dont want to go out and i dont want to stay in bed.

its the shittiest feeling.

its not the pain that bothers me, i can deal with pain

its the fact my emotions are as predictable as Melbourne weather and im as lost as Stevie wonder reading a melways.

in the end..i don't think its even that.

it's knowing people i love are getting sicker and older.

friends i love are wandering afar and forgetting who they left behind.

things i once loved to do mean nothing nowadays.

its that i have absolutely no hope left.

not enough to make me smile

not enough to make me cry

and not enough worth fighting for.

Allowed to Complain.

I need to rant.
I thought rather than keep playing nice I'd blog about you :)

It shits me that I'm your last resort...even though I'm one of your "best friends"
It shits me that every slutty little dumbass takes my spot til they fuck you over and you "miss me"
It shits me that everything is and always has been about you
but it shits me mostly I took this long to stand up for myself...

This is the last time it happens...if you fuck it up you can go back to your wishy washy, come and go, use your money then throw you out like last weeks news, useless, fucked up "friends".

THE END.

I DO.

It's a year until it's officially over..until nothing will ever be again

They say time flies when you're having fun, but no single part of this has been fun yet it feels like only yesterday I was in your arms...
I don't know what happened, or when, or why, or even how...but I know that somewhere along the lines I wandered away and blamed you for it..
It's sad that it took me so long to realize, it's more like pathetic and now I have to sit and smile and pretend that it doesn't affect me, that I am happier than ever..
I never knew how much it would hurt, I was always prepared and ready for those run-into-the-person moments...except for Saturday night
I was caught off guard...both the car and my heart broke suddenly...it was like a wound reopened. and now the scar stares at me every second of every minute of every day..

It's a year until it's officially over...until nothing will ever be again...until the bell chimes and your hand acquires a new found permanent friend...a golden symbol of love...the love I ran from.