it's not like i don't know there are many people worse off then me.
i completely get it, i do.
but i just feel like one of the unluckiest people ever.
im sick of being sick
and im tired of being tired
i dont want to go out and i dont want to stay in bed.
its the shittiest feeling.
its not the pain that bothers me, i can deal with pain
its the fact my emotions are as predictable as Melbourne weather and im as lost as Stevie wonder reading a melways.
in the end..i don't think its even that.
it's knowing people i love are getting sicker and older.
friends i love are wandering afar and forgetting who they left behind.
things i once loved to do mean nothing nowadays.
its that i have absolutely no hope left.
not enough to make me smile
not enough to make me cry
and not enough worth fighting for.
honey, you need to get out of this routine you're giving yourself.
ReplyDeleteget out there, meet new people
give yourself reasons to smile, laugh and cry.
meet new bitches who cause trouble, and also girls who you can totally relate to
get out and flirt with guys, have crushes... have ones who will piss you off and ones who you just can't stop thinking about.
excite yourself bebe xox
i <3'er you.
ReplyDeletebut i dont flirt or have crushes
haha
x